Monday, June 22, 2015

Changes be Coming 'Round the Corner

Today is a bitter-sweet day.
Today starts the last week that I will be a full-time Nanny for Bear and Bug.

In some ways I can hardly believe that I have been with them for just about 2 years. Wasn't it yesterday that I was walking off the plane to come meet the family? Time has flown with these little men. I can hardly believe that it is coming to an end. 

"How lucky I am to have something so hard to say good-bye"
 - Winnie the Pooh

This job, with these boys, with their parents has been one of the most rewarding things I have ever done. Being a part of their first 3 years of life, teaching them, loving them, watching them grow - it has all been so incredibly overwhelming.Knowing that in some small way Bear and Bug will always have a little bit of me in them and that I will have a little bit of them in me is a priceless feeling. 

Being a Nanny has also been one of the hardest jobs that I have ever said yes to. There were days it was physically tiring, others it was mentally numbing, but mostly it has been emotionally draining. A really good, crazy hard, made me stronger kind of draining. It pushed me to my limits of patience and understanding. In the moments that my emotions wanted to take over one of their sweet smiles would melt my heart letting me know that there is little value at getting angry at the small things in life.

Wrangling two very active toddlers has been a massive life lesson in patience. Teaching them how to have conflict resolution has helped me in learning what battles in life to pick. Most of all their love has taught me how free and unattached my love for others should be. Bear so freely forgives me by climbing in my lap with a pile of books to read after a mini battle. Bug openly loves with his kisses and hugs no matter how many times I have scolded him for putting rocks in his mouth. 

These boys and this job has taught me so many wonderful life lessons. 
The time has come for a different family to teach me new life lessons.

The Details:

For those of you that want to know the details here they are.

A few months back I started wondering if my time with the boys was coming to an end. When I signed up for this job they were infants, little-bitties. Now they are not so little. Bear refuses to be called anything but a big boy while Bug is physically just as big as his older brother. Around the time I started questioning my role as their nanny their Mom started expressing her desire to stay home her next contract year.

Over a few months we had several small conversations about a few of our thoughts but nothing seemed to really be taking shape. Until one night we ended having a great conversation about how both us were feeling - she really wanted to stay home with the boys and I really wanted to find a new job with at least one baby.

At the beginning of June details come together for MomBoss to stay home full-time with her boys and for me to start looking for a job. I started filling out applications with local Seattle nanny agencies. My NannyFamily has offered me the option to keep living with them, which I am really grateful for. I am currently in the middle of the interview process with a highly recommended agency, hoping to end up in a new NannyFamily with a baby.

This is a really exciting time for both me and MomBoss. Two things are making this transition extra easy 1) We are ending this season of life together on the same page, we are both happy with the coming transition. 2) Even though I have to say good-bye to doing everyday life with the boys I don't have to say good-bye to them.

What's Next?
 I don't 100% know.

The whole world is open to me - I have no clue if I will end being a nanny for 1 baby or 4 kids.
But when I know you will know.

I plan on blogging my journey over the next few weeks.
So stay tuned in if you want to see where this next season of life takes me. It is an exciting new chapter for me, working with an agency and hopefully a family that I haven't met yet, taking a newborn care specialist training, and taking the next step in my nanny career.
Good things are to come.

ceconner© 6.22.2015

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